how can i??

Thursday, September 07, 2006

12:44 AM

it was jus a simple question "have u certified ur SPM certificate?" a short but yet deadly question which sparked a "war"..
why was i such a hot-tempered lil boy? it was just a simple lil question la boy.. why did i have 2 yell back.. why?? F**k myself la =.=

yea i noe i was in de right stand.. but it doesn't give me de right 2 talk back at such a rude and loud tone.. oh come on la..she's already 53 and she has spent a great deal of her life jus to make sure my life is perfect.. JUST give her another bloody chance 2 be RIGHT and CORRECT !!.. why couldn't i jus shut de F up and jus listen 2 watever she has 2 say?.. why can't i just control tat big mouth of mine??.. jus friggin wished i was dumb.. that'll make things much more peaceful.. yea..no voice means there's no chance for this lil idiot 2 talk back at her.. and this unwanted lil idiot wouldn't have 2 be a badboy too..
but NOOO.. this lil idiot had 2 yell and argue back like nobody's business.. and worst..shoot a F word in front of her.. and if u think saying de F word is cool and proud thing 2 do..especially in front of ur parents.. i'd pray u rot in hell!

why isit so hard for me 2 be a mama's boy??.. why can't i just be like de others??.. be a goodie goodie boy.. it'll make things much more easier and better for de family without a black sheep like me.. :)
well..it's probably becoz of that headstrong character of mine.. or probably just becoz i'm plain BAD.. (bad and dead)

time 2 sleep and end another bad day...sleep through de night and endure another bad day :)

u all have fun and rest assure and tell urself max is having a bad day :) HAVE A NICE PLEASANT DAY


p.s IF u think u've been a very bad boy or bad girl for ur parents.. comfort urself by telling urself this : max is even worse than me ..

-max-